State of Nausea

I feel nauseated at least once a day. Everyday. I know this isn't normal but I also know it isn't serious, it's just me. I never ACTUALLY vom, but the feeling is so strong and real and I often do wack things to calm myself down. Let me walk you through this:

What provokes my Jamie Nausea (J-Naus):
- the bus ride to and from the biotech center (very bumpy, very jerky)
- hurting myself (especially when its cold out, oh man)
- nervousness
- church

Church is the only J-Naus that actually produces results. I think it has to do with the crowded area, standing alot, and the events of Saturday evening that fall onto Sunday morning. That stuff, or it's a natural exorcism of all my evils. Either way, I've had to excuse myself more than once (by excuse I mean haul ass to the back of the church to kneel to my Lord and present to him my gifts)...

Nervousness is a doozie too since this often means I'm doing something important like giving a speech. When I was the keynote at graduation I was walking down the procession line and blacking out and holding back the J-Naus and I grabbed a water bottle from a lady sitting and chugged it to bring myself to. Could you imagine?! What if I had thrown up or collapsed in front of my graduating class, professors, parents, deans... good god, that would have been it.

So basically, I am a pro at recognizing the fatal signs and correcting for them. If I am standing in front of people and feel it, I pretend to tie my shoe (even if there's no laces) so the blood can return to my stupid ass head. On the jerky bus, i press my face against the cold window and stare at my hand. Hahaha this is so funny, I crack myself up. Why do I find myself in these problems? I know it's all psychosomatic, I'm an anxiety explosion.

So anyway I just thought to blog about this as I was dry heaving after jamming my finger this morning.

Hey thanks for participating in my poll... I did NOT pull out of the market, although I tried. I was a breath away from withdrawing everything but I couldn't figure out the website. Then the next day I went up $1000. YYYEeeeeaaaa boiiii.

Halloween is coming, I can't wait. Here's a spooky ghoul to get you in the mood:

Ebony and Ivory

Big debate tonight, the final clash of ebony and ivory. As a young liberal, I'm looking forward to seeing some polarized debate over domestic issues. I think my readers will agree that till we have fixed income and families, the most pressing issues that concern us are generally of the domestic variety. I don't know if this is the definition of stubborn or if others agree, but it seems like some of these issues have a clear solution, I don't even see a need to debate.

If Sarah Palin states that we don't want to live in some big-brother government telling us what to do and not do (as she did in the vice presidential debate) how can she be PRO-LIFE?! As I see it, that's exactly what this stance says, "You will follow this rule with no exceptions." And teaching abstinence only education is simply ludacris to me. While you're at it why don't you cut out evolution, too. After all, the more uneducated we make our children, the more likely they'll be to turn Republican at 18.

Both sides have been clearly open about their opinions on gay marriage. Both are against. We need to get over this gay-straight thing.

I was driving through rural Pittsburgh this weekend on my way to a pumpkin patch and I saw a ton of signs that said, "Democrats for McCain". They could have saved some money on printing if they just wrote, "Racists", cause that's all that means.

I don't even love Obama, he's good, he speaks wonderfully and has an amazing presence, but I'm not completely sold. The point is I am just incredibly against this particular Republican campaign. In my book, they are doing everything wrong. Basing a whole campaign on character is ok if you're running for Miss Alaska, but not the US EXECUTIVE BRANCH! Where's the versatility? They have outwardly stated that they didn't want to hold a campaign based on economics because it's not McCain's strong point. Does this mean if he wins the presidency, he isn't going to address the economic issues?

I made a picture, hehe...

I got my mind on my money and my money on my mind

Hello folks,

So let's talk stock market. As an uneducated investor (only the best kind there is), I'm feeling pretty helter skelter about this debacle. 5 months ago, I invested the only large sum of money I have ever been able to call my own. Today, it is halved. I don't want to look at my portfolio because I am a "long term investor" but frankly, I am scared of bottoming out. It's like if I have enough to last through this tough time, I know it'll grow again so that's why I want to stay in, but I just don't know if my money will last through it.

Different forecasters are positive about the correction of the problem, but they also predict that this isn't the lowest the market will go. In fact they are calling for an ultimate low of -30% by 2010. Awesome, just in time for me to be an adult.

And on the flip side, what if I decide to grow a set and actually look into buying more stocks now while the market is low?

Basically, this is a decision that has no "sure thing" answer. Please add your two cents (or 15 grand if you're feeling up to it...) to my poll that I made.

New look, Same great taste

OH SNAP! Look who remembers how to HTML code!

The theme of my week has been, "Pimp that ---" where the "---" can be substituted with MacBook Pro, Blog, even math homework. For my Mac, I have DEF taken it to another level. New software, new background, more organized and faster (and of course, all changes were 100% legal). Obviously my blog has been pimped. Maybe a little too much, I may need to tone it down a bit. And well, my math homework has been pimped because I decided to write as nicely and largely as possible to defer the grader from realizing that no problem is technically done.

Weekend holds alot of work in store. Gotta pimp the house, pimp the NSF grant, and force myself to stop using "pimp".

Till next time...